the art of feeling like shit

Yeah, had 3 midterms in the past 2 days. and Yeah studied a lot last minutes and Yeah, didn't sleep much and YEAH I FLUNKED IT.. well not exactly flunked. for the CE 60 midterm (its a concrete class, we learn the composition of concrete and we mix cements and destroy concrete blocks and stuff, do you guys know that one block of concrete (3 inches diameter, 6 inches height) can hold a compression force of 77000 pounds? thats around 10000 pounds per square inch... WHAAT?? thats crazy i know) anyways that was ok, didnt do too well, but oh well...
my MATH midterm... was really bad. its bad in a sense that its all proofs and theorems and stuff and i'm just really bad at those. not my world. PLUS i found out 5 minutes after the midterm that if i do bad i don't have to turn it in because the grading scheme will be distributed jadi midterm pertama would be 20% of the class instead of 15 and the finals would be 45 instead of 35. and i did so well on my first midterm...
so that was great by itself because my life would've been much better should i had not turn in the midterm. i think i'm gonna get less than 50% on this midterm too... thats perfect.
after that i told ron about it.. and he was like oh my god kenapa sih kamu bisa ceroboh banget, ntar kamu kalo jadi engineer gimana tuh orang2 pada mati dong... bla bla bla bla bla,.... making me feel so worthless and in general... like shit... so thats great
and i talked to my mom and she was like kamu ceroboh banget sih...
and i know i am ceroboh but it just sucked that everybody has to emphasise it and degrade me further towards shittiness...so YEAP...
everything went ok with ron's mom and brother. his younger bro is ok cos he can relate to me because his mom said i'm so childish.. Yeah, thats me, i'm childish... thanks ron's mom..
and YES I am bitter because its a veteran's day today but i have to finish a paper that was due last week plus i have a take home exam that i don't know how to do...
i feel like shit...
oh i watched the incredibles and ray yesterday to make me feel better,.. they're worth watching. and yea, everybody should definitely watch team america because it shows how self centered and stupid americans are.. it really isn't what we grew up thinking it is.... ah i'll write those down in another entry. done with my bitterness.. thats my whole week's portion.